Pray. That is what your knees are for, to pray. And if you forget this, God has a funny way of reminding you. I was fortunate to be offered a job at an insurance company not three day after I walked in my college graduation. God is truly Awesome! Unfortunately around this time I also started to realize that the relationship that I had with M that I thought was flawless began to crumble. Which was entirely my doing. I am NOT making excuses for my behavior but I began to fear that what I had experienced in past relationships (which were very bad business) was coming to pass in my relationship with M. So I did what any sane 21 year old would do and sat M down and talked it through, right? Wrong, I did probably the stupidest thing I could have and turned and ran in the opposite direction as quickly as I could. Fast. And without warning. I was a selfish, selfish person and hurt my best friend in the entire world. I lost sight of the fact that God has a plan and lost trust in the Lord. I am not proud of this at all. Maybe that's why it's taken me two months to face it.
So where do I go from here? Well I know that the babies and chicken I had dancing in my head are a lot farther off now, but I still feel that it's in God's plan for my life. But where I go is to my knees, I thank the Lord for every beautiful moment He gave me with M. I thank Him for introducing me to M's wonderful family. I pray that a family and love like I experienced with M is planned for me by Him. And I never lose hope.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
So where do I go from here? Well I know that the babies and chicken I had dancing in my head are a lot farther off now, but I still feel that it's in God's plan for my life. But where I go is to my knees, I thank the Lord for every beautiful moment He gave me with M. I thank Him for introducing me to M's wonderful family. I pray that a family and love like I experienced with M is planned for me by Him. And I never lose hope.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
God definitely has a plan for you, J. Keep trust in the Lord. He makes good out of our mistakes. I know this to be fact. <3
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